hey,night world :)

it's almost 1 am and i still wake up here in front of my laptop with my handphone,hercules,and "bantal asem".it's cold and silent.yeah too late to make some annoying sounds.i just finished a call with bian and hell no i miss him already.i know it's sound weird but it's true.i miss him a lot and too much.but wait,i don't want to talk just about bian for this time.i want to talk about umm my daily life,my bad daily life.uhh sucks!

you know what,my life is getting worse each day.not all of my life but some parts of it.like my friendship life,school life,and yeah sometimes love life but it's normal rite?every relationship must have some problems.so i prefer to not talk about it.it's my and his problem ;) ok now let's start ummm my frienship life.bestfriend is forever?the real bestfriend is forever.i used to think that my bestfriends are forever but after i lost my bestbestfriend and bestfriend......i think it's not that easy to find the real bestfriend.now yona,tesha,anya,putri,ka lana,dyah is all i have as a bestfriend and i hope at the end they'll be my real bestfriends.i love them so much,and i need them a lot.they always right beside me when i need someone to talk to.they never blame anything on me but they give me some advice.but honestly,i miss my bestbestfriend so much,whatever she has done,she used to be my closest friend.but yeah life isn't fair sometimes.what you want not always what you need rite?

now about my school life,oh God please i need more holiday.2 days perweek isn't enough really.it's too short.and yeah i need your help to make me focus in class.shit i always try to but i can't.aaaaaaaaaaaa i want to stop this fuckin' things.school?why don't we just learn what we want to learn and then work.it's better of course hahahaha.

and the last thing before i watch dvd from yona,i want to talk about bian.just a little bit :p you should know that i love you.i love you the way i always do.i love you more each day.i love you more each time you let me down.i don't know how,i don't know why but it's true.i know we have a problem that sometimes make us think twice and feel uncomfortable.but you know what?no matter what we have to face after today,i still here for loving you.i always do.so please stay here with me to feel our unpredictable tmrw,the day after tmrw,next week,or next month.just enjoy what we have now or we'll have nothing at all :')

love,Fabian's